confessions of a dangerous mind

2011-03-15T09:22:00.000+08:00

Some people believe that we can't change.
Thats because they don't know what i was like before.

2011-03-05T05:03:00.003+08:00

good thing the person who asked was not in front of me or i might have snapped. Fuck i need a drink

2010-12-29T07:12:00.001+08:00

2011 is the year of change for me, time to be more responsible and get my act together.
God please help me.

2010-08-17T10:05:00.001+08:00

i really don't like what i'm doing right now. fuck

2009-11-13T19:03:00.001+08:00

change is the only constant in life.
If your environment doesn't change thus means that you have to change your environment.

2009-10-28T20:17:00.000+08:00

thank you God :)

2009-10-26T12:17:00.001+08:00

these next two days would have to be perfect.
God Help us, i pray that we pass.

inevitable

2009-10-24T02:12:00.002+08:00

someone close to me just approached me and asked for help.... i knew this day would come but how come i can't even say "yes" right away.... the thought just went through me that he must also seek other options... i'll just give it some time but eventually i will still help and give a hand

2009-10-18T23:33:00.001+08:00

battlecry for the next ten days:
"Banat! like never before"

2009-10-14T00:48:00.001+08:00

If you can't handle the pressure... get out of the kitchen
Fuck the Pressure! 13 days to go, i can do this!

Oct 14

2009-10-14T00:47:00.001+08:00

I know your happy there with the Big Guy Mom, Happy Birthday!

change

2009-08-17T21:16:00.007+08:00

the only constant in life is change, and i think i'm now in another phase of my life where i must do one thing, but i keep on getting pulled back somehow.

now i question, how the fuck am i going to change?

i need to focus and think of whats best
God help me.

2009-05-19T20:24:00.003+08:00

its been almost a year till i lost her...
bad thing has happened but nothing can top that,
wished she was still here, then nothing else would matter

fuck, i hate work

2009-02-02T09:32:00.002+08:00

i've been cursing a lot more these past few weeks, for no particular reason.
need to change before i get the hang of it and say something bad to others.

On another note, i've been analyzing a lot of stuff about me, and i figured that i don't give a rats ass on most topics and issues. Maybe its time for me to give things another perspective.

Fuck. life is such a bitch

focus

2008-11-26T12:44:00.003+08:00

One word that stuck in my head when i was out of the country was "Focus"
Even if your fucking wasted from all the fuckin work. Keep focus

Now its time to step up.
Focus my mind to a set goal.
Nothing else matters now but to achieve that goal.

longgest drive.

2008-05-23T09:20:00.000+08:00

on my way home afterwork, i took the shuttle from makati to filinvest mall with my girlfriend kelly,
then my mobile rang... its my dad....
saying some of the words that i never wanted to hear....
"please go now before its too late"
fuck!

now on my way home, i was greeted with tears by our kasambahays, the expression confirms it
i WAS too late
then i started the engine of my trusty overheating ride, to start the journey...

i've already driven to as far as subic, and driven in traffic for half a day, but to date... and i think for the rest of my life...
this IS my longgest drive

thinking of the days before, what i have and haven't done...
regretting....
cursing in every fucking way that i know...
tears falling....
and praying to God....

as i reach the ER, my family members just pointed to what direction
i walked by her bedside
i gave one last kiss to her forehead
cried my ass off
and then said goodbye

thanks mama, i love you
....

the magic wand

2008-03-04T12:36:00.005+08:00

everytime you enter a mall, the security guard checks you with a magic wand... that when the magic wand is waved in your bag... magically they will know, even though they don't have a clue on what the fuck they are doing.

bitch

2008-02-29T13:55:00.003+08:00

its been a long time since i've been in this place, i've somewhat experienced a drought... .drought of things to criticize and write about, well here's to my 1st entry of the year

for the first time in my life, i'm being mature.... thinking of future commitments, investments, what to do in my job, rather than what to drink @ night... i've also been saying to myself and reflecting on why did it just happen now? what the fuck did i do the past years? what did i do in school? @ my previous work?.... well somewhat, this kind of stage is inevitable, and i foresee that i would be coping with more responsibilities and tasks on job and personal matters that i could think of.... shit.... growing up is a bitch

its about time

2007-08-05T11:35:00.000+08:00

right now, i may say for the first time in a very fuckin long time, i'm happy...
i hope this feeling lasts

scapegoat

2007-06-22T23:35:00.000+08:00

this time last year i remember thinking of doing anything just to get some work and money. I was bored to my ass, to think that i got so tired of getting wasted each and everynight and just dream of being a normal corporate fuckin slave.

now i'm in the corporate working, computer excel calculating, and wake your lazy ass off in the morning type of life. It's normal, its boring, but yet i get paid and give myself some use.

though now i'm thinking that for all that work and effort everyday, people just seem to extend their problems to me and turn me into the ultimate scapegoat for all their problems.

fuck!

2007-06-11T19:29:00.000+08:00

now, whenever i close my eyes, i think of the bad things that have been happening to me.... and whenever i open them i don't know what to do.... fuck

i'm a witness

2007-06-02T10:45:00.000+08:00

1 more game and the king will debut in the finals!

The Tipping Point

2007-04-25T07:44:00.000+08:00

Does it ever come a point in your life that you are just waiting to burst out or explode, not just due to the extreme heat, but because of the fucked up things that is happening around you?

fucked up karma

2006-12-26T19:36:00.000+08:00

sometimes i think that every bad thing that happens to me and to someone close to me is a result from the bad things that i've done in the past.
like karma is out to get me....

hope nobody gets offended

2006-12-09T19:33:00.000+08:00

i thought of this while riding the MRT to work....
there is a very vast similarity between a newspaper and the womans breasts.
that whenever they are very near you....
you tend to stare, look and read it :)

2 much

2006-11-18T20:45:00.000+08:00

why is it that too much of anything can be so harmful?
too much alcohol...
too much sun...
too much water...
too much exercise...
too much stretching...
too much food...
too much protein...
too much TV...
too much time on the computer...
too much studying...
too much reading...
too much thinking...
too much stress...

.... this is just too much

Behind Blue Eyes - The Who

2006-09-13T14:09:00.000+08:00

No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man

Behind blue eyes

No one knows what it's like
To be hated
To be fated
To telling only lies

But my dreams
They aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be

I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

No one knows what it's like
To feel these feelings
Like I do
And I blame you

No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain and woe
Can show through

But my dreams
They aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be

I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

When my fist clenches, crack it open
Before I use it and lose my cool
When I smile, tell me some bad news
Before I laugh and act like a fool

If I swallow anything evil
Put your finger down my throat
If I shiver, please give me a blanket
Keep me warm, let me wear your coat

No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man

Behind blue eyes....

25731

2006-08-26T13:14:00.000+08:00

Don't you just wish that life is like a video game?
That you can just restart when you make a bad decision

Big Words

2006-07-23T12:50:00.000+08:00

HOPE is ONE big word that I must use in order to go through my bummed out life
FAITH is another, that the BIG GUY up there might give me a little boost for strength
Yet a couple of days ago, someone very close to me gave a piece of paper with a word to research in the internet...
Then as I googled it up, another big fucking word came up on my screen
Then I immediately went back searching for HOPE and FAITH

"THE" Conversation

2006-06-26T19:03:00.000+08:00

Me: What school did you go to?
Person 2: "THE Ateneo De Manila University!"
Me: Oh yeah... cool!
Person 2: You?
Me: "THE"... LSU!

hahahaha! Astig!

2006-06-17T13:46:00.000+08:00

This made me laugh

Me and my friends went to Dish in ABS-CBN last night to watch
Mayonnaise Video launch of their new track "Panaginip" for their second album
Then came out of nowhere this local female television artist from the "Kapuso" network
with this guy to give a few reminders and announcements to the audience.
She was definitely not herself and looked wasted...
Then at one point she gave this amazing comment;

"These are great bands and they could sing stuff from like the 70's, 80's 90's....
and uhhmmm... the 20th Century"

Hell Yeah!

oboB

2006-06-13T18:08:00.000+08:00

tangina nabobobo na ata me
parang i'm not sanay na in writing sa paper
may test ako kanina na madali lang pero nde ko natapos
hindot naman sa imo o!

Haaay....
It's okay, i'm considering this Somewhat a reality check for me

DaMien vs Da Vinci

2006-06-06T12:26:00.000+08:00

Don't you think religious groups should rather focus on banning
the showing of The OMEN rather than The Da Vinci Code?

Yeah! Damien Rules! \m/ 666!

responsibiliDAD

2006-05-14T13:14:00.000+08:00

Now i'm feeling a lot of pressure from being jobless
I feel that my dad is suddenly thinking that I'm a worthless parasite in the house
and in the past couple of weeks, he has been giving me lectures on responsibility...
and that I don't have a fucking clue on what it means
It's like all my hard work in college was a load of crap when he is giving me those lectures.
and I feel like shit.... and it's not just because i'm hung over... FUCK!

Bow Down To The King

2006-05-04T17:21:00.000+08:00

His second game winning shot in his first career playoff series

We are ALL Fucking Witnesses!

2006-04-24T18:54:00.000+08:00

Just got back from the beach and I learned something
That you can do (and will do) anything if someone tells you
"Wala naman pasok bukas e"
and
"Matanda ka na"

Holy Weak

2006-04-15T16:19:00.000+08:00

This week is a time of sacrifice and reflection.
But instead of doing that, I got drunk and wasted almost everynight
Then by the time I got some decent sleep... at around 3pm of Good Friday, The time JC died,

Instead of like going into a relaxed and tranced state of slumber
I felt weak...
I saw the light go out and came darkness...
Then I felt myself falling
falling downwards and downwards...
I then had hard time breathing...
using all my strength to gasp for air...
then from that moment, i thought all is lost...
i thought it's the END

then my eyes opened at around 8 in the evening...
sweating and my heart pulputating...
Then i can't sleep till 7 in the morning of Black Saturday.

M - V - P

2006-04-15T14:04:00.000+08:00

I will be fucking pissed if the NBA won't give the MVP to Lebron or Kobe this year.

Batch 2000

2006-04-01T04:44:00.000+08:00

It has been six years since we graduated from high school.
I stepped out with a lot of dreams and ambitions.
I thought that by this time I would be all good and financially independent and stable.
But yet, I failed myself.
I wasted a lot of time and effort that eluded me from my goal
Fuck!
It's time for me to find something productive to do and get my lazy ass of the bed.
I've got to focus, set my priorities and think about my future.
Damn....

2006-03-29T11:38:00.000+08:00

Noontime Shows

2006-03-26T13:06:00.000+08:00

There's this thing that I don't get with our variety or noontime shows,
it's when they invite bands over to sing,
then some "pretty" artist just happens to sing along with them
that somehow destroys the quality of the song.
I don't know, but they COULD just let the fucking bands sing and do their thing.... right?

Sa libu-libong nakatunganga
Kami lang ang inyong pag-asa
Tumutok na bawat tanghali
Wag na wag na kayong babawi

Sumunod ka na lang sa uso
E ano kung hinde bagay sa yo?
Sambahin ang mga artista
Sundan ang bawat kilos nila

Gasgasin mga lumang plaka
Hanggang dito na lang ang masa
Ganito dapat pumorma
Para magmukhang artista

Ganito dapat ang kulay
Para umunlad ang buhay
Ganito dapat ang banda
Pagkanta may epal na artista

--- Theme From Noontime Show by The Itchyworms

just some random thoughts:

2006-03-24T19:54:00.000+08:00

different kinds of flowers, insomnia, chess, football, NBA, poker...

I feel another crisis is at hand... shit!

Hypothetical question

2006-03-11T11:57:00.000+08:00

What if hypothetically you met a really weird person a couple of months ago...
and this weird person kept on telling stories about
the gangsta life in the U S of A
stuff that you would only see in the movies or on TV
then hypothetically this person happens to end up in your daily newspaper, when you scanned through it...
but not in the "I'm proud of you" sections of the paper,
but rather in the "What the Fuck?!" sections.

How would you react?

In my part,
I think the person just proved to the people on how GANGSTA he is.
And it showed me that people can be as insane, as you see in TV.

86' Remix

2006-02-27T17:53:00.000+08:00

Another tumultuous time has come at the the helm of us Filipino's.
Rallies everywhere and opposition groups are definitely having a frenzy using this as a tool to converge and think of a way to oust the president.
And now, people are feeling another EDSA revolution is at hand.

You know...
There would definitely be traffic in EDSA...but the people would not use their cars
or other means of transportation. They will gather in one of the busiest paths in the country and scream their lungs out for whatever cause they want.
20 years has passed since EDSA 1, some of the key movers and leaders of that time still head a very strong group of loyalists that have the capacity and power of overthrowing a government

De Ja Vu all over again
Sometimes I think that THE 1986 EDSA Revolution was over rated
It definitely helped our country in the past
But it is somewhat destroying the logic and thought of the Filipino's now.

Vote, EDSA I, oust, Vote, EDSAII, oust, Vote....

If only we Filipino's have the same drive of helping one another with the drive we
have in conveging in EDSA.

I as of the moment, don't have a clue on where I stand because i'm so fucking confused on what is happening.

I just hope that we can all get through this

When I was in College.....

2006-02-19T20:50:00.000+08:00

Okay this is a little overdue, but here is one of my most memorable College experience.
I won't go with the simple cliché like smoking in agno, beach, parking lots, LG...,
laughing with your blockmates in the classroom, accidentally blowing the fusebox of a tv set while doing a report,
almost destroying the drilling machine,Or the hard days during thesis,
but i'd rather go with a really bad experience I had with another student...

I was making up for my last hour of community service for RELSFOR in the second floor of the
SPS building, we were making posters for the upcoming presedential elections...
everything was going well, I was with 2 of my blockmates...
we were cutting pictures of Raul Roco and Ping Lacson and gluing them in manila paper..
then suddenly, a voice just came out of nowhere...
there's this girl sitting in one of the tables and looking suspiciously unpleasant... then she said,
"Siguro mga ENG kayo noh..."
I just stared at my two blockmates then looked at her... then with a smirk on my face, told in a very
sarcastic tone...
"Hanep! Paano mo naman nasabi yun?"

then she said... "Baka mamaya pag sinabi ko, magalit kayo sakin e..."
Then I said "Hanep!"

Woah! I could really formulate that she was having a bad day and that she was just pissing everybody for them
to reach to her level... but come on...
It was a pretty fucking low blow...
Before, I would have blacked out and told her to shut the fuck up because she looks more like a guy than us
(which is true haha)
and not to fucking piss somebody who has a pair of scissors in his hand.

But I just figured, it's not worth the fight, i've dealt things in worse situations, and that this would be easy,
she would have cried the hell out if I did that and made her look very bad.
But I didn't and just laughed with my blockmates after the incident.

Whoa!...
Maybe I am growing up.

24

2006-02-11T06:18:00.000+08:00

Being Twenty Four:
Wow! Amazing!
I can now count my age for each hour of the day

The Casualties of Poverty

2006-02-07T15:17:00.001+08:00

Since I studied engineering, I have this thing with numbers;
Now the first three numbers in the multiplication table of 2 has a meaning for me

2 4 6
02/04/06
February 4, 2006

73 dead and hundreds injured
Lets remember it and pray for them

Everybody Lies

2006-02-03T03:01:00.000+08:00

After watching the COMPLETE Season 1 DVD of House M.D. (in two fucking boring days)
it made me think...
made me think if his perception of the human nature is right...
that everybody lies...

it made me think of the people around me
whether they like me or they are just pretending to like me and just talk to me,

it's weird but somehow the whole concept of lying is normal...
House is absolutely right
Everybody DO Lie

We lie to our parents, friends, loved ones, boss, teachers, security guards, sales ladies...
people lie about their age, stature, opinion, school, grades, likes, dislikes...
and most of all

People lie about themselves.

its sad, but true

So, have you lied lately?
I know I have

2006-01-22T03:48:00.000+08:00

After I lost count of the bottles...
I'm already a little tipsy...
but I still don't think it's enough...
I need more alcohol...
I want to forget something...
I ask "why?"; but I know the answer...
And I can't take it...
Fuck!
I hate this feeling

Oh well... Cheers!
Gulp! Gulp! Gulp!

CAT XING

2006-01-14T18:03:00.000+08:00

There's this incident a couple of years ago when I was driving,
I saw a BLACK cat on the road... so in my part, due to the superstition that if the
BLACK cat crossed the street it will cause me bad luck,
so I pressed the gas pedal for my car to accelerate before the cat can cross...
vrooom!
Then I smiled becuase I was successful in avoiding the cat...
But just on other block when i turned i suddenly hit something...
when I looked at my sideview mirror...
Shit!
I just hit a WHITE cat...

After that, I never fucking believed in that stupid superstition.

2006-01-10T01:52:00.000+08:00

i just thought of something and I hope nobody gets offended...
I think you guys should all mark your calendars
on the sixth of june this year.
Because it will read:
June 6, 2006
06-06-06
666!
six! six! six!
waaaaa! SATAN! \m/

Fuck, I just don't know how these things pop up in my head.

The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe

2006-01-09T04:18:00.000+08:00

Try watching the movie trailers before the film
and you can catch the trailer of The Da Vinci Code...
It got me all pumped up and I can't wait for the movie.
It's great to see Tom Hanks as Robert Langdon.

Oh yeah, and the movie was great too, the effects that they used on the
lion was spectacular, i think they used a Jimmy Henson puppet and CGI...

MY NBA Predictions

2006-01-08T10:57:00.000+08:00

Here are my predictions on what will happen in the NBA this season:

Come the all star game, the MVP will be Steve Nash with about sixty assists.... haha
At first I thought Steve Nash was the lamest MVP ever, because I thought they ought to give Kidd one before him and that he is just a reincarnation of John Stockton with bigger shorts. But from what he is doing to Phoenix this year, he is proving me wrong.

In the playoffs:
the matchups in the west will be:

1st Round:
Since the Timberwolves are playing so poorly, I think the Nuggets will top their division, so the Twolves will go down as the team to match up with the Spurs

1.Spurs vs 8.Timberwolves
4.Mavericks vs. 5. Grizzlies

Nuggets and Lakers.... Kobe being "Booed!"... but then Kobe producing around 40 per

3.Nuggets vs. 6. Lakers
2.Suns vs 7. Clippers

2nd ROund
I picked the Lakers and Clippers to battle the 2nd round, because it's one hell of a series...
the battle of Los Angeles! Think about it, no one can chant "BEAT LA" haha

1.Spurs vs. 4.Mavericks
6.Lakers vs. 7.Clippers
Conference Finals

When it's all said and done, even though you don't like Kobe,
he is still Kobe...(remember the 62 in 3 quarters) So I picked the Lake show to be in the conference finals
But i didn't say that they would win....

1.Spurs vs 6.Lakers

the matchups in the East will be:
1st Round
We are just waiting on what the Pacers are gonna do with Ron Artest, but most probably they'll get a good deal
out of him so I placed them to have home court advantage over the cavs.
And well the Pistons... i think they'll get a record of about (68-14) They'll lose in the later part of the season to rest their starters for the start of the playoffs.
And another reason is that I don't want them to beat the 72-10 record of the 96' Chicago team.
1.Pistons vs 8.Wizards
4.Pacers vs. 5.Cavaliers

3.Nets vs. 6.Bucks
2.Heat vs 7.Sixers

2nd ROund
I don't have anything against the Heat or anything, but I don't think they got the legs to
go through the season and the playoffs... so i'm picking the tandem of AI (allen iverson not andre igoudala) and
CWebb over them.
And of course, since the only guy stopping Lebron is gone for the Pacers( Ron Artest)
Cleveland will prevail...
1.Pistons vs. 5.Cavaliers
3.Nets vs. 7.Sixers

Conference Finals
No doubt, whoever they face, the Pistons will win.
1.Pistons vs 2.Nets

In the Finals
Pistons will win against the Spurs in 6 games

Now the Awards:
Coach of the Year: For what he did to the clips this season
Mike Dunleavy

MVP
Billups has a good shot...
Ben Wallace is a shoe in for the Defensive Player of the Year;
Tim Duncan... well he is still Tim Duncan but he got too much already;
Steve Nash got the trophy last year;
so lets just give the award to the new KING in the NBA

MVP:
Lebron James

ALL NBA 1st Team:

Elton Brand
Duncan
King James
Billups
Steve Nash

honorable mention: AI, Kobe, Marcus Camby, Big Ben

Defensive Player of the Year:
Ben Wallace

All NBA Defensive Team:
Big Ben
Tim Duncan
Teyshaun Prince
Dwyane Wade
Billups

Rookie of the Year:
No doubt - Chris Paul

Note: These are just my predictions and I just want to see how many will be accurate.

Story of the Painting of the Last Supper

2006-01-03T08:25:00.000+08:00

For the people who were also drawn to the interesting facts of Da Vinci Code. This was not about the holy grail though.

Leonardo Da Vinci, the noted Italian artist painted the Last Supper. It took seven years for him to complete it. The figures representing the twelve Apostles and Christ himself were painted from living persons. The life-model for the painting of the figure of Jesus was chosen first.

When it was decided that Da Vinci would paint this great picture, hundreds and hundreds of young men were carefully viewed in an endeavor to find a face and personality exhibiting innocence and beauty, free from the scars and signs of dissipation caused by sin.

Finally, after weeks of laborious search, a young man nineteen years of age was selected as a model for the portrayal of Christ. For six months Da Vinci worked on the production of this leading character of his famous painting. During the next six years Da Vinci continued his labors on this sublime work of art. One by one fitting persons were chosen to represent each of the eleven Apostles (maybe 10 apostles and 1 for Mary Magdalene) -- with space being left for the painting of the figure representing Judas Iscariot as the final task of this masterpiece.

This was the Apostle, you remember, who betrayed his Lord for thirty pieces of silver. For weeks Da Vinci searched for a man with a hard, callous face, with a countenance marked by scars of avarice, deceit, hypocrisy, and crime. A face that would delineate a character who would betray his best friend.

After many discouraging experiences in searching for the type of person required to represent Judas, word came to Da Vinci that a man whose appearance fully met his requirements had been found in a dungeon in Rome, sentenced to die for a life of crime and murder. Da Vinci made the trip to Rome at once, and this man was brought out from his imprisonment in the dungeon and led out into the light of the sun. There Da Vinci saw before him a dark, swarthy man his long shaggy and unkempt hair sprawled over his face, which betrayed a character of viciousness and complete ruin. At last the famous painter had found the person he wanted to represent the character of Judas in his painting. By special permission from the king, this prisoner was carried to Milan where the picture was being painted. For months he sat before Da Vinci at appointed hours each day as the gifted artist diligently continued his task of transmitting, to his painting, this base character representing the traitor and betrayer of our Savior.

As he finished his last stroke, he turned to the guards and said, I have finished. You may take the prisoner away. As the guards were leading their prisoner away, he suddenly broke loose from their control and rushed up to Da Vinci, crying as he did so, "Da Vinci, look at me. Do you not know who I am?" Da Vinci, with the trained eyes of a great character student, carefully scrutinized the man upon whose face he had constantly gazed for six months and replied, "No, I have never seen you in my life until you were brought before me out of the dungeon in Rome."

Then, lifting his eyes toward heaven, the prisoner said, "Oh God, have I fallen so low?" Then turning his face to the painter he cried, "Leonardo Da Vinci, look at me again for I am the same man you painted just seven years ago as the figure of CHRIST."

I don't know about you, but I had goose bumps after reading this...
But after googling it, I found out that this is just fiction, but still, the mere impression that the figure that he painted once as the CHRIST, is also the same figure he represented as the BETRAYER.
Damn... that really made me think.
Just check out the site
http://www.truthorfiction.com/rumors/l/lastsupper.htm

2006-01-01T14:33:00.000+08:00

365 and a one fourth days have passed;
all the smoke has cleared;
but the smell is still there;
the food has been eaten;
your stomach is tucked out;
all the SMS has been read;
the mug for the beer is half full;
feeling a little tipsy, but yet still fully alive;
you stand still, while father time is moving a thousand times every time you blink;
Another new years resolution will be written and promised to yourself;
another will be forgotten;
you will meet a lot of people this upcoming year;
you will also miss a lot;
Oh well.... HAPPY NEW YEAR!

The Holiday Spirit

2005-12-23T12:55:00.000+08:00

* All the guards in the gates has boxes in their hands and
salutes to each and every car that passes by
* People go to the Misa de gallo (dawn masses) to get a glimpse at people going there, and sleep after the gospel
* The smell of freshly baked bibingka and putobumbong
* Remembering who your ninong and ninang's are
* The silliness at Christmas parties
* The crisp peso bills
* The "What will I get my girlfriend?" question
* The fucking traffic.
* Queso de bola
* The End of the Year reports in the office
* The unopened fruitcake in the ref
* Highblood after eating too much lechon
* The drunk relatives
* The "Ang laki mo na..." statement in family reunions
* People doing their last minute shopping
* The fucking traffic
* Chick......Boom!
* Gluttony is not one of the 7 deadly sins
* People turning their lights off at night to hide from the carolers
* Your garbage being collected on time
* The Metro Manila Filmfest
* Nobody knows the meaning of "diet"
* The new shoes on everyone but you
* The countless Christmas songs on the radio
* Sexy stars putting on santa claus outfits

These are just some of the things i've noticed... I'm not implementing that they are bad or anything
but, all I can say is..... Onli in the Filipins.
I just hope that we won't forget the true meaning of CHRISTmas..
MERRY CHRISTMAS!

2005-12-20T20:06:00.000+08:00

Einstein was a patent office clerk.
Isaac Newton was director of the mint.
Nikola Tesla was a ditch digger.
Benjamin Lee Whorf was a fire inspector.
Will Rogers was a rope twirler.
Ben Franklin was a printer.
Peter was a fisherman.
Matthew was a tax collector.
Moses was a sheepherder.
Krishna was a butter thief.
Mohammed was a soldier.
Thoreau was a pencil maker.
Thomas Paine was a girdle maker.
Wilbur and Orville were bicycle mechanics.
and
Joshua bar-Joseph, which is the real name of JESUS CHRIST, was a carpenter.

Since my next venture in life is to look for a job...
I think this will help me realize that the occupation of a person doesn't define his whole self and it will also help take out some of the pressure...

2005-12-09T02:30:00.000+08:00

While getting lost thru the music of Stone Temple Pilots and the words
of Neil Gaimans "American Gods",
I then wander to the unknown,
the path of which there is no turning back, and the point of no return

As I click on to the next track... I ask,
What now? What's next for me?
and then I say to myself...
Shit! Do I have to answer now? Can it wait?

then "Big Empty" blasted in my speakers.

2005-12-08T23:07:00.000+08:00

I just want to greet my dad a
Happy sixty ninth Birthday!

2005-11-30T21:35:00.001+08:00

Is it kind of weird that the theme of Pinoy Big Brother
"Pinoy Ako" by Orange and Lemons, talks about how proud they are of being a Filipino
where the fact is that they ripped the song out a British new wave band.
I'm not at all against Pinoy Big Brother or have anything against Orange and Lemons but..
don't you think that it's so typical Pinoy?
Pinoy ako... Pinoy tayo...

Note: I wrote this post because I heard a song played 5 times in 5 different places in a span of 30 minutes! Maybe even less

2005-11-25T16:01:00.000+08:00

Now to answer the question on my previous post
Question: Does hard work pay off?

Answer: Hell YEAH!

Thank you LORD!

2005-11-17T17:55:00.000+08:00

Question: Does hard work pay off?

Fuck! I HOPE the answer is YES.

Fake President?

2005-11-10T19:47:00.000+08:00

There's this ongoing campaign that i heard which asks us Filipino's to link the PGMA website in the name of "Pekeng Pangulo".
It is a really good campaign that encourages us to be active on the ongoing struggle of our country, but there's this question that keeps popping in my head...
"Is there really a TRUE PRESIDENT?"
Has there been a president that hasn't lied, cheated, or stole from the people?
I just don't know...

2005-11-02T14:35:00.000+08:00

As i was channel surfing, I then noticed the new format of
Pilipinas Game Ka Na ba?
In the first round when somebody answer's correctly, Kris Aquino then says;
"May Tama Ka!"
I just wondered who made her say that.... May tama sya!

2005-10-26T01:56:00.000+08:00

Lord,
please just help me overcome the obstacles around me;
give me strength because i'm slacking;
guide me so that I wouldn't go down the wrong path;
let me see what I need to do;
And thank you,
because even though my problems won't go away,
one by one, i'm slowly learning how to solve them.
AMEN.

Estimate: Half of iPod price is profit

2005-10-24T06:47:00.000+08:00

Found this article in

Road Rage!

2005-10-19T13:32:00.000+08:00

I was on my way to the mall to buy some cd's. But as i was about to turn left on the main road...
about several dozen cops are there, and they are rerouting our way to the other side...
then as i gazed up on the route...
fuck! there's gonna be a chaos if I continue this way...
so i just signaled left and was about to U turn...
then all of the sudden a fucking van was speeding and just missed me..
then he has this sudden urge to just smile and scratch his dumb ass head...
so i slowed my car as i U turned so that i can get a better glimpse at him...
then i opened my window and eventually gave him the finger with the combination of "Putangina mo! Muntikan nako dun gago kang putanginang ng putangina mo!"
then he said "Ikaw pa nagmura"
then i gave him another combo of the finger and a louder "PUTANGINA MO!"
Damn! Stupid son of a bitch!
Maybe he was lucky , I was about to release all my tension because of the sudden CRISIS that is happening to me... I was fucking ready to fight!
but since there was about dozens of cops... it was a stupid way to go down.
Tangina! Burat!

2005-10-17T17:59:00.000+08:00

SHIT!
I hate it this time of the year!
I'm experiencing another CRISIS in my life.....
can't do anything but wait till it's over...
I gotta find something else to do so that it won't affect me...
SHIT!

On reality shows

2005-10-17T09:23:00.000+08:00

This is just my theory because of the sudden influx and popularity of reality shows on TV.
That reality shows are really SCRIPTED.

2005-10-08T01:03:00.000+08:00

Question: What happened to me tonight?
Answer: I wasted my money, time and gas for nothing.
Fuck!
I should have stayed at home...

Year One

2005-10-05T08:19:00.000+08:00

365 days;
8,760 hours;
525,600 minutes;
31,536,000 seconds;
....have passed
and yet here i'am
in front of my computer
typing, thinking, murmuring, confessing, confusing, penetrating, singing, ignoring, criticizing, drinking, and waiting
waiting in whatever comes to my head to type on this post.
Because i have nothing else to type but just state that it's been a year
since i started this shit.

Insomnia ......

2005-10-02T04:32:00.000+08:00

SHIT!
I can't stop thinking of .......

2005-09-20T01:59:00.000+08:00

Just had a thought...
Have you ever realized that the motto of Mcdonald's in the country, instead of making it
"Mahal ko to", they used "Love ko to"
Just wondering on why they used taglish instead of Tagalog or Filipino.
This just somehow shows the trend on how we see the Philippines today,
lacking identity and making use of the Western culture...

tired....

2005-09-13T22:59:00.000+08:00

Fuck! I'm getting lazy ..
since we're almost finished with our thesis,
I basically have nothing to do than just party and get wasted...
but i'm getting tired
i'm tired of lying in my bed the whole day watching DVD's, sound tripping, and downloading songs
i'm tired of going at night, drinking and doing whatever..
i'm tired of coming back home at dawn..
i'm tired of waking up at noon and eating alone..
i'm tired of getting wasted...
but now here i am, it's the middle of the night, and it's fucking early for me
So now i'm going out, because i know that even though
i'm dead tired of doing these things...
that i love it...

2005-09-10T11:17:00.000+08:00

It's down to this
I've got to make this life make sense
Can anyone tell what I've done
I miss the life
I miss the colours of the world
Can anyone tell where I am

'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun again
Away from the sun again

I'm over this
I'm tired of living in the dark
Can anyone see me down here
The feeling's gone
There's nothing left to lift me up
Back into the world I know

And now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun
That shines to light the way for me
To find my way back into the arms
That care about the ones like me
I'm so far down, away from the sun again

It's down to this
I've got to make this life make sense
And now I can't tell what I've done

And now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines to light the way for me

'Cause now again I've found myself
So far down, away from the sun
That shines into the darkest place
I'm so far down, away from the sun
That shines to light the way for me
To find my way back into the arms
That care about the ones like me
I'm so far down, away from the sun again

Oh no...
Yeah...
I'm gone...

-- "Away From The Sun" by 3 Doors Down

Fuck!As I woke up this morning,
this just kept on popping in my head....

2005-09-09T11:30:00.000+08:00

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Getting Something Out Of My Mind

2005-09-06T19:12:00.000+08:00

Statistically, if you are saying that the whole or the majority of the people are against you, is that if you get the votes of more than half
50% or more dramatically and convincingly around 70% to be sure.
Now the current situation of the Philippines is somewhat amusing and disgusting at the same time.
There are like mass rallies or different rallies here in Manila, they are all saying that Gloria should be
impeached or that she should resign because the WHOLE Philippines wants her to resign. But then again,
can you really say that the WHOLE Philippines wants Gloria to resign?

Around a month ago, I was watching TV, it's one of the shows where you can see the opinions of other people around the country by their
text messages. A very funny but yet very significant message came to my attention.
it says
"Tama na yan gulo nyo dyan! Sa Maynila lang naman magulo e, pati kami dito naaapektuhan!"
It just shows the fact that we are only seeing half the story. We are only seeing what the people in Manila wants, not what people in the provinces or especially people from
Mindanao. This is a very critical thing since we need to get the vote of those people.
We are just seeing the noisy Manilenyos, and not the quiet Juan's

Now another thing
what is the difference between going through with the impeachment, and going through with the Parliamentary System?
If you think about it, in both cases, Gloria will still be ousted and not finish the six year term.
So, why not take the Parliamentary system, since the present system of the Philippines suck.

Just getting some of these things out of my mind.

3:07 p.m.

2005-09-04T15:07:00.000+08:00

As my mini component blasted sounds of Rage Against The Machine,
i woke up and looked as the hands of the clock pointed at 3:07 pm.
Then my mind is now absorbing the fact that we didn't make it,
and we have to enrol the next term just to revise the limitations on the damn thing
As I try to stand up and stretch,
my body is feeling the effects of all the brutality it has endured this past weekend from the things we did last Friday,
till we went straight to the beach at Punta Fuego on Saturday, and i went straight to Saguijo when we got back to Manila on Saturday night.
So eventually, i only got around 2 hours sleep from Friday till Sunday early morning.
Damn! It's very tiring but yet
a fun, rewarding and a well deserved escape from the real world
The ambiance of the beach just relaxed me, it made me forget my worries and problems,(especially the fucking thesis)
The sound when I hear the water splash by the rocks,
the taste when I sipped the thirst quenching beverage of San Miguel,
the feel when i walk on the sand,
the spin while I toss the frisbee to my friends,
the fall while learning how to skim board,
and the buzz while i drank more.....
it's such an addictive feeling and I wished time would just stay still....
But now, the feeling is over, and i'm already awake.

Trip to Fantasy

2005-08-28T22:57:00.000+08:00

Went to saguijo bar last night with my good friend marcus for the Admit One night (Sugarfree, Twisted Halo, Happy Meals, Cambio, Sandwich)
It was also Sugarfree's sixth aniversary, so eventully it became a very sugarfree night.
As i opened the door, flowing music just vibrated my eardrums and dozens of people are now like
tranced by the music of sandwich as they are staring at the singer and head banging from the beat of the drummer.
then i went directly to the bar to use my drink stub to get a nice cold bottle of
San Miguel Pale Pilsen.
I sipped it... and damn the beer was good.
As i sipped three more times, i talked to marcus if i can use his drink stub, since he is not drinking, to get me another one of that great feeling.
Feeling of not thinking of what to do next but just to drink, listen to music, and make fun of stoned people walking by.
As the night went on, i lost count of the beer, the people started walking out the door. I then walked outside to get one last smell.
Then we went home. I took a bath and brushed my teeth, then slept.
As I opened my eyes, it's already 1pm.
Time to wake up and go back to the reality.

Hell's Kitchen

2005-08-27T18:46:00.000+08:00

Fuck!
This may be, to date, one of the most stressful and pressure packed week in my life.
I can't remember anything that i can compare to what is happening to me now.
This experience will then determine my downfall or my legacy.
After this experience, i think I CAN DO ANYTHING.

Last time, we worked nonstop from Thursday 4pm till Friday 7pm.
When i said nonstop - it literally means nonstop, maybe a break just to eat and drink but that's it.
There's about two days left, as i'm publishing this blog, to the deadline.
And yet the prototype is still ain't fucking working.

Here i am, my mind is getting drained and depressed while listening to chilled out music of Hed Kandi and D'sound visavis the rock psychedelic tunes of Radiohead, P.O.T.,The Killers, Pedicab, and Oasis
just to keep me up and going and to remind me that it's a Sabado Night.
Go out Joe and have a good time, because tomorrow, hell will be all over again.
But from all the pressure and obstacles that have come throughout this week, i said to myself that if there's a chance, i will take it. Even if i don't succeed,as long as i know
that i gave everthing i got just to beat the odds and to overcome the pressure i'll take it.

It's the last two minutes, we are in the red zone,the bottom of the ninth, i'm at the bat with two strikes-3 balls-and 2 outs,
as the saying goes
"if you can't handle the pressure, just get out of the kitchen."
In my case, i won't...
fuck the pressure!

Seven....

2005-08-12T18:08:00.000+08:00

This came from Russ' blog:

seven "things" that scare me.
1. losing someone i love
2. Ghosts
3. flying cochroach inside bathroom (wala kasi pamalo)
4. Not being able to wake up
5. Dogs chasing me
6. Not finishing my thesis (Fuck! sana matapos na!)
7. The future......

seven "things" that i like most.
1. Pizza
2. Pusit
3. Drinking
4. Beach
5. Shrimps
6. Cars
7. DVD's

seven important things in my room.
1. Television
2. Computer
3. Mini-Component
4. Playstation 2
5. DVD Player
6. Clothes
7. Bed

seven things i plan to do before i die.
1. Skydyving
2. Kiss my son/daughter farewell (hehe keso)
3. Impeach a president
4. Drive an ENZO Ferrari
5. Write a book / Make a film
6. Win a nobel prize
7. Watch an NBA Finals Game Live

seven things that i cant do.
1. Say bad things about my parents
2. Ignore a friend in need
3. Buy a cheessy CD (like Hale)
4. Kill a person
5. Betray my friends
6. Drink gasoline
7. Burn a house down

seven things that i say the most.
1. Hanep!
2. Astig!
3. Okay Ka!
4. Ayos lang
5. Sige
6. i love.... (Hindi loko lang) ----- > P!*@ng ina mo ka!
7. There comes a time in a mans life......

Reflections from a Funeral

2005-08-11T20:57:00.000+08:00

As we buried my uncle this afternoon, heavy rain showered us and magnified the effect on how a funeral and a family loss can be so sad. It was like the funeral scene of Daredevil where everyone was holding an umbrella. The moment was just so sad that all of my friends and relatives were crying or had a tear in their eye. So as I gazed upon all the people, I saw my dad... maybe for the first time in my life, I saw him really sad.
It made me think because I know from all the relatives we had, I know he despised or that he wasn't fond of my uncle... so there has to be a deeper reason on why he is sad.

Then I came to realize that he was sad because he knew that he was older than my uncle and that he is now getting the feeling that somewhere down the line, he might be next. I saw it in his eyes, he knows that before my uncle died, my uncle was a younger and stronger man, but yet here he is. Lying in a casket waiting to be thrown by flowers and waiting to be covered by dirt.
Damn! I hate to even think about it but it's the truth.

2005-08-07T15:48:00.000+08:00

Due to the current political crisis in the country, i think it's better to post political opinions by veteran analysts rather than post things about how wasted or how drunk i got during the weekend.....
and also since i don't remember what i did this past week :)

Change
By Randy David
Inquirer News Service

WE tend to think of change as something to achieve
rather than as something to recognize. We talk of
effecting changes in our value system or in the
structure of our society-little suspecting that the
seeds of such changes have already been sown. It is my
contention here that the continuing crisis in our
national life may be no more than the symptom of the
stresses created by uncoordinated changes that have
taken place over many years in various spheres of our
society. We only need to read the signs.

"Culture," says the anthropologist Clifford Geertz,
"moves rather like an octopus-not all at once in a
smoothly coordinated synergy of parts, a massive
co-action of the whole, but by disjointed movements of
this part, then that, and now the other, which somehow
cumulate to directional change." What Geertz notes
about cultures may as well apply to entire societal
systems. Their various parts move in unplanned ways
over time, without taking the whole mass with them as
they head in one or other direction. The impulses
toward change may come from any part, and their effect
on the whole system is largely unpredictable. Some
impulses are more consequential than others.

In her last State of the Nation Address, President
Macapagal-Arroyo appeared to be guided by some version
of this theory when she said that the nation's
political system has lagged behind its economic
system. She argued that our political problems are the
outcomes of an outmoded presidential and unitary
system of government. We may change leaders, she says,
but if we don't change the system, the outcomes will
be the same. She paints herself as a victim, and
blames the system for the dysfunctions of her
administration. To her, the solution is simple: change
the form of government to a federal parliamentary
government.

This shift in perspective from persons to systems is
not entirely wrong, and indeed, it is time we focused
on systemic change. But Ms Arroyo's analysis is flawed
in at least two ways. First, she does not really tell
us what changes have taken place in our economic life
that would support the claim of an impending economic
take-off. Second, she explains the crisis of her
presidency merely as the result of a stalemate between
executive and legislative powers, of the gridlock
between the two houses of Congress, and of the
tendency to use people power to oust a president who
has fallen out of favor.

These gridlocks may be real, but to project them as
the causes of Ms Arroyo's failure as a leader is to
tax the imagination. What have they got to do with the
practices that have become the emblems of her
presidency-the massive and organized electoral fraud,
the conversion of public funds into campaign largesse,
the deployment of the military and the police for
partisan politics, and the distribution of choice
positions in the public bureaucracy as political
rewards?

Ms Arroyo may indeed be the child of a dysfunctional
and obsolete political system. But this system is
dysfunctional not in the sense that it blocks
governance but in the sense that it serves only the
interests of those who monopolize political and
economic life. And it is obsolete not in the sense
that it lags behind an imagined economic take-off, but
in the sense that it cannot contain the new political
consciousness that is emerging among our people.

The word "dysfunction" has a precise meaning in the
social sciences. It refers to outcomes that prevent
the larger system from maintaining itself. A political
system becomes dysfunctional when it can no longer set
realizable goals and mobilize public effort toward
their achievement. It is the story of our political
life. Over the years, politics in our country has been
a contest among rival factions of the elite.
Governmental power is prized because it is the main
factor in economic accumulation. Paul D. Hutchcroft,
who studied the links between politics and banking in
our country, used the term "booty capitalism" to
describe this arrangement.

Something changed in our political landscape, and that
change the elite did not anticipate. With the growth
of cities and the spread of urban living, the old
modes of voter management based on layers of
patron-client reciprocity were eroded. Politicians
found themselves having to spend more during
elections. The two-party system that martial law
killed could not be revived upon the return of formal
democracy. As a result, political recruitment became
dependent on "winnability," and mass media exposure
became a crucial factor.

But most importantly, from the mid-'70s, something
changed in our social landscape. Overseas work became
the dynamic element in the country's economic life.
OFW remittances funded the college education of
millions of young people from poor families.
Consumption patterns throughout the country changed
overnight. Television sets and personal computers
became ordinary fixtures in many OFW homes, making way
for new forms of consciousness. Returning OFWs brought
home with them new values, new expectations about the
role of government, and new notions about the basic
entitlements of ordinary citizens.

The OFW phenomenon is an impulse that is
revolutionizing our way of life beyond what we can
imagine. Its overall impact is pulling our political
system toward greater democracy, more transparency in
government, and more accountability in public life.
Politicians rooted in the old ways of patronage and
corruption, like Ms Arroyo, are increasingly unable to
take leadership roles in this emerging society. This
crisis is telling us that the old is dying, and
something new is about to be born.

Something insightful I came across which I figured I'd pass on

2005-07-17T13:22:00.000+08:00

The idea came into mind as I was playing with the
idea of envy versus idolatry. If you were to build a
celebrity, at what point can you build up a public
figure so as to that they will be idolized as
opposed to that they will just be targets of envy?

The classic case is always experienced by the
popular people wherever- may it be in the school,
work, or immediate family environment. It is either
they are idolized or they are subjects of envy.

Someone will be popular if they are different, and
that that difference is usually something which is
wanted by the rest. The problem is, if the general
populace still feel that that popular individual is
still one of them, it will be hard for the
individual to cross the boundary between idolatry
and envy. The individual has to be unreachable to
be idolized rather than envied.

Such is the case of Marcos, Erap, or FPJ. The
masses feel that they are a race different from its
own. Marcos has had a branding that was
extremely intelligent, having been able to acquit
himself in a murder case, adding to that trophy
wife of his. Same goes with Erap or FPJ, with
machismo overflowing that it seems that for one-
he has balls the size of an elephants to be able to
maintain quite a large harem or FPJ who has that
hero-one man army image. From a pedestal,
though they were Filipinos, they were extremely
high up there that they, as opposed to being
envied, are idolized by so many.

The psychology behind hating Gloria

With Cory, Ramos, and Gloria, they were not very
popular simply because they did not possess any
superhuman images. The 3 were extremely
unpopular during their terms and Ramos only
gained popularity after his term (when the people
realized his achievements). The worse of them all
popularity wise was Gloria, who was small and
looked very next door Filipino-ish, who talked
funny, who had an image of a biglang yaman snot,
and who was a kapampangan (known for their not
too good traits.). Gloria has all the formula not only
to be envied but to be hated, all thats left is one
reason to hate her.

Same goes of any other people that are subjects of
discriminations- may it be blacks, middle easterns,
the urban poor- one wrong move for them and its all
out hate time.

Actually, by now, I dont really care anymore if
Gloria will be ousted or not. It is the hate which
is alarming me. For most people, Gloria is now
even hated more than Erap, even for the people
who ousted Erap. These are thinking people, and
yet they dont realize that they are masking their
hate through making themselves believe that they
are upholding righteousness (is not forgiveness
one of the greatest moral teachings? Whoever is
without sin cast the first stone). They dont realize
that they are hating the Filipino- Gloria is every bit
an image of the next door Filipino. They dont
realize that their hate are manifestations of the
prejudices they have for the Filipino, for their very
race.

Some say there is no racial discrimination in this
country. Well there is one, and that is
discrimination for our very own race. The ultimate
dream: live outside the country, marry a foreigner,
and leave this God forsaken place? Who are the
nationalities of my idols? What is the nationality
of who I think the most beautiful person in the
world? Who is an example of bakya? What traits of
the Filipino do you want to have and what are the
traits of the Filipino that you hate?

By:
Josefino Fernando Andy J. Lazir
andylazir@yahoo.com
Lover of the Filipino

2005-07-13T20:35:00.000+08:00

For me, I think it's better for PGMA not to resign but to just go through the process of impeachment. So, you may say that i'm Anti-Resign but PRO-Impeachment.
The reason for my stand is because we Filipinos are exxagerating our democracy, democracy for the freedom of "whatever". If you look at the meaning of democracy in the dictionary, you will see that it is the government of the people and by the people. But if we don't follow the laws and process involved on how democracy was founded and established, then we have a false democracy. If we always result to the street and not follow the bystandards that our fellow citizens fought for during the Marcos regime, then we should just burn our constitution.
Think about it, EDSA II was just 4 years ago, and yet here we are again. Yeah, EDSA I and II was cool, EDSA III was a rebellion, but if ever this falls out to an EDSA IV, we would be the laughing stock of the world!
A democracy that was founded 108 years, but yet still doesn't have what it takes to be a great nation. A country that still doesn't know how to learn from it's mistakes.

Questions About the Current Situation of the Philippines

2005-07-03T14:10:00.000+08:00

Who can say who cheated when everybody is a cheater?
Who can say who is right when everybody is wrong?
What is the meaning of tax?
Why do government agencies keep on collecting taxes when no citizen in the country gets any good benefits?
What do senators actually do?
What is the Sandiganbayan doing?
Why do government officials keep changing parties?
How come government vehicles don't follow the traffic laws?
Why is it that the Philippines have a greater technological advantage when it comes to text messaging rather than any other thing? (pasa load, express remit, etc..)
Why does the media keep on confusing us with all this bullshit?
Why is the toll so high when you can't move from the traffic?
Who cares what Kris Aquino likes?
Are there still patriots left?
Why is there no diversity in the television shows?
Why wont we learn from our mistakes?
What is the significance of the Vice-presidential position?
Why do you waste millions of pesos for a career in politics?
How do you study Philippine Politics?
Is Marcos the best president we had the last quarter of a century?
Will we have another celebrity president?
What is the significance of a single vote?
Does anybody respect the Philippine flag?
What are we Filipino's known for?
What is our reputation?
Do we still have an identity?
How can i get out of here?
Do you think it's necessary to implement Martial Law now?
Who wants to be the president of the Philippines?
Why do you want to be the president of the Philippines?

Why do people just keep on raising questions and not answer them?

Question Number Three

2005-07-01T01:09:00.000+08:00

This is the take home test from my INTROSO class

Question 3:
Sociologists have identified four interrelated core values emerging
in US society---leisure, physical fitness, and self-fulfillment,
concern for environment. If you were to examine our own Philippine
youth culture, provide 2 significant current or emerging core values
among the youth and/or the yuppy. Support your argument by
expounding on the consequent norms and sanctions of the core values
you identified. Make a stand whether these values are "adaptive"
or "regressive" with respect to Philippine society.

As I was talking to my friend about ideas on a great t-shirt to wear in Fort for the nightly “gimik’s”, we had exactly the same idea in mind. Making a white t-shirt that says in bold black letters “Pretentious like you”. Then we laughed for a while and stopped.... Is this what really is happening to our society. The youth and our nation is losing it’s identity. Yeah we Filipino’s had an identity during EDSA, but today, the only thing the world knows about EDSA is the traffic. If you go bar hopping in Makati, you would definitely notice how pretentious we are. The youth wearing tight fit, muscle showing shirts and jeans like the display and pose in Guess advertisements, people buying 100 peso beer’s when they already know that it’s just 20, and people cursing because of high gasoline prices while driving a Ford F150.
Basically the core values that I see here in the Philippines being displayed is leisure and self-fulfillment. Though it is weird for me to be saying that leisure is what I see during a time of chaos and conflict, but it’s reality. I still see students flash high end cell phones with digital cameras. I still see people placing digital displays and 24 inch mag wheels like what you see in “MTV’s Pimpin My Ride” in their cars. And I still see the youth, wasting money and time drinking, partying and getting wasted till the next morning. Even though we are considered to be a third world country, some extraordinary people are still living like kings and queens. Just take the new San Miguel commercial for example. Where Kris Aquino drives a brand new Ferrari. Does any one know how much a Ferrari cost? In the United States it’s already expensive, but when you bring it here, it’s a gold mine! Leisure for me is regressive sociologically in the Philippines. It just show how some people don’t care (or don’t even know) on what is happening around us. Yes, politicians always say that they are against graft and corruption, but yet there they are. In thousand peso suits and barongs, 5 million peso SUV’s that consumes loads of gasoline everytime you start the engine. It’s unfair, showing leisure in a time that some of our fellow citizens can’t even find a job for a good meal for their families.

Self-fulfillment is the other emerging interrelated core that I can see that has a trend here in the Philippines. Basically because most of us Filipino’s are selfish and think about ourselves. Thus the word “self” is widely used in our society. Even though of the great complex that Filipino’s tend to have of being humble and hospitable, but nowadays, it’s all just “for show”. In the real world, the thing that Filipino’s tend to have today is self-fulfillment, fulfillment of their own personal goals, which most of the time is not about the country but mostly of themselves. Another good concrete example is the influx of nurses and teachers going to the United States. I remember a time when the medical board top notcher even went to the United States to take a nursing job, other that staying in the country to be a doctor. This is one of the core values that is regressing our Philippine Society. Yes, self-fulfillment is great for oneself or for our families, but what we need today are values that can save our society and country. I remember during one of the first exercises we had in INTROSO when we grouped together and Sir Marshall asked us a question on whether we would interfere if someone would be in great peril or grave danger. It is amusing and interesting to see that I was one of the only persons insane enough to say “Yes!”, and that everyone just kept giving answers of “Survival of the fittest” and other stuff. I wouldn’t say that I want to be a superman or batman, but I just figured that there are many forms of help a person can do, either by screaming, throwing a rock, calling the police, kicking the guy, running towards them.... the list just keeps going on, but from all the forms of help, there is only one form of escape, and that is ignoring the situation and walking away.
To conclude, I think that the mentality of our Philippine society is getting selfish. It’s first come first served, and not let the one’s who needs to be served be the first in line. I on the other hand still have faith that one day, Filipino’s will realize our mistakes amidst all these conflict, controversy and chaos and one day rebuild and work together for the benefit of our nation and society.

go for gold - a call to arms

2005-06-08T12:34:00.001+08:00

As i was scanning through my previous emails, i saw this one

Date: Thu, 10 Feb 2005 00:22:25 -0800 (PST)
From: "Jippo Cervantes"
Subject: go for gold - a call to arms
To: joega_11@yahoo.com, tumacder_p@yahoo.com, karenannefactora@yahoo.com

sorry feeling ko lang magdrama, sarap lang ng ma-inspire eh

"Go For Gold - A Call To Arms"
a persuasive essay by Jippo

hello groupmates. this serves as an exhortation since
i feel compelled to write after another positive
meeting with our adviser sir oscar.

since before, we have been treated as misfits by
teachers and classmates. they are not wholly to blame
since we have decided to act exactly as such because
simply put, we do not care. but this freedom comes at
a price, we are not notified about important
announcements, we are not entrusted responsibilities,
we are never given a chance to shine. i confess this
is of our own doing, and it is a situation, with your
help, that i wish to remedy.

enter thesis making. i am the one who suggested to
make the two-legged robot, thinking dr. elmer is a
competent adviser, since i believed he was the one who
really "understood" us. we as a group did not see that
he himself was treated as a misfit by his colleagues
within the department since we put so much trust in
him. we thought we could prove everyone wrong, that we
could do it as long we were under the guidance of dr.
dadios and joel. this proved not to be the case as we
learned that our "mentors" were a sham and a scam
respectively, albeit a little too late.

2004 came and went, we had to change research topics
several times and yet still to no avail. and then
start of this year, we went through a whole slew of
proposals, under the pressure of finishing in time. in
the end we all chose our current topic, the automated
coin segregator and counter, under the guidance of mr.
unas. it's hard, he kept asking questions, we kept
asking ourselves "do we really need to do all these
things?" in the end, the question is how much do you
really believe in yourself and in your product? i
myself believe in this that i have chosen to take an
active part in it, to take responsibility for the
tasks assigned to me. i used to be apathetic towards
the other topics, i didn't care as long as i did what
was asked of me. now is a different story. i think i
now have a standard of quality in my work, and i take
pride in it. i see it too among all of you. we have
grown a lot in the sense that we used to think this
was all just a requirement that we can do as long as
we followed our advisers, and now we think this is OUR
work with OUR seal of quality which WE put so much
time and thought into. we're growing up, finally.
seldom do i write or speak with such conviction but
when i do i believe it fully. after this morning's
meeting with sir oscar i am more hopeful for our
project. i believe that he sees real potential in our
project. he brought up the subject of gold thesis and
eventually commercialization of our product. he said
that the trend in those who achieve the gold thesis is
that no, they weren't a "dream team" group composed of
those with high grades, but they were the ones who set
the objective for themselves that they were gonna make
a gold thesis. this is what this whole thing is all
about, i am exhorting the group to aim for gold, to
heighten our standards, to be excellent in our work.
surely we will prove everyone wrong if we, a bunch of
misfits, get gold thesis, is it not? plus, it is
enough compensation to our parents for not finishing
on time. we have nothing to lose and everything to
gain.

my sister said in her graduation speech "always aim
for the sun, because if you miss you'll still be among
the stars". this means that having high hopes leaves
us a chance of good to excellent work and no room for
work that is below par. i believe we can do it, our
adviser believes it too. i ask everyone for the last
time, let us make gold thesis our objective from the
beginning. we can prove everyone wrong if we do this.
that we are not misfits, that we can be entrusted with
responsibilities, that we will shine when given the
chance. and this, everyone will believe to be THE TRUTH.

The "Ako si M16" Effect

2005-06-01T17:44:00.000+08:00

From www.juniorkilat.com
Junior Kilat -
Ako si M16Ako si M16 at your service bai aduna pud ko'y anak, si baby armalite Ako si M16 at your service bai aduna pud ko'y anak, si baby armalite Ako si M16 at your service bai aduna pud ko'y anak, si baby armalite Ako si M16 at your service bai aduna pud ko'y anak, si baby armalite
..:..Bratatatatatatatatatatatatat!Bang bang bang bang bang Bang bang bang bang bang Bang bang bang bang! Bratatatatatatatatatatatatat!Bang bang bang bang bang Bang bang bang bang bang Bang bang bang bang! Bratatatatatatatatatatatatat!Bang bang bang bang bang Bang bang bang bang bang Bang bang bang bang! Bratatatatatatatatatatatatat!Bang bang bang bang bang Bang bang bang bang bang Bang bang bang bang!
Ang akong mga bala, hastang pwerting baratohaAyaw lang katingala, kung supplier di magpailaAng akong mga bala, hastang pwerting baratohaAyaw lang katingala, kung supplier di magpaila
Buy-one take-one kung walay gyeraPresyo times two kung election o kudetaBuy-one take-one kung walay gyeraPresyo times two kung election o kudeta
..:..Bratatatatatatatatatatatatat!Bang bang bang bang bang Bang bang bang bang bang Bang bang bang bang! Bratatatatatatatatatatatatat!Bang bang bang bang bang Bang bang bang bang bang Bang bang bang bang! Bratatatatatatatatatatatatat!Bang bang bang bang bang Bang bang bang bang bang Bang bang bang bang! Bratatatatatatatatatatatatat!Bang bang bang bang bang Bang bang bang bang bang Bang bang bang bang!
Kini si M203, kini sa M203Ang bala kusgan, kini si M203Kini si M203, kini sa M203Ang bala kusgan, kini si M203
Grenade launcher, dugangi lang dyes milGrenade launcher, dugangi lang dyes milGrenade launcher, dugangi lang dyes milGrenade launcher, dugangi lang dyes mil
..:..Bratatatatatatatatatatatatat!Bang bang bang bang bang Bang bang bang bang bang Bang bang bang bang! Bratatatatatatatatatatatatat!Bang bang bang bang bang Bang bang bang bang bang Bang bang bang bang! Bratatatatatatatatatatatatat!Bang bang bang bang bang Bang bang bang bang bang Bang bang bang bang! Bratatatatatatatatatatatatat!Bang bang bang bang bang Bang bang bang bang bang Bang bang bang bang!
--Turntable Solo---Guitar Solo-
Ako si M16 at your service bai aduna pud ko'y anak, si baby armalite Ako si M16 at your service bai aduna pud ko'y anak, si baby armalite Ako si M16 at your service bai aduna pud ko'y anak, si baby armalite Ako si M16 at your service bai aduna pud ko'y anak, si baby armalite
Ako si M16, Ako si M16, Ako si M16, M203, Ako si M16, Ako si M16, Ako si M16, Ako si M16, M203, Ako si M16, Ako si M16, Ako si M16, Ako si M16, M203, Ako si M16, Ako si M16, Ako si M16, Ako si M16, M203, Ako si M16,
Bratatatatatatatatat

This is the most annoying, irritating, but yet remarkable song that I heard.
When you will first hear the song, it will stuck into your mind for a very long time. So in order for me to further infect other people, i downloaded the song from Limewire and play it in my car
so that other people will be infested by the sick annoying tune of Junior Kilat.
My blockmate even told me that she can't sleep at night because the song just keeps popping in her head.... " Ako si M16 at your service bai"..... it will definitely haunt you for a long time.
But despite the annoying nature of the song, i realized that there is a very significant meaning on what the song tries to tell the listeners. Even though I don't know anything in Cebuano, the singer is trying to implicate the selling of guns and ammo's here in the country.
He is saying that he is selling an M16 and that you can reach him conveniently and that the guns and ammo double the price during the time of war and chaos
He is even saying that he can sell us a grenade launcher for just ten thousand pesos (diyes mil)
So as I analyzed the song, it became clear to me that junior kilat is not just another novelty song writer or group from Cebu, but they are really a bunch of creative and imaginative song writers about society....
"Ako si m16 at your service bai..."

The Last Term ... hopefully

2005-05-28T20:30:00.000+08:00

Just finished the first week of my "Last Term". This is my first class in over a year, so i'm still getting used to the environment... again.... or I think they are getting used to me...
Good thing the last floating subject I have is sociology, the topics are very interesting, like the other day when the prof talked about Adolf Hitler,
and how much he affected the sociological situation of the world.... he was considered to be
one of the most persuasive persons in history, that he persuaded his fellow men to kill millions... and not even blink to react on what they did, they just said when asked how they can kill millions of people "We were just following orders"
amazing! If you all believe in something that is right, you will all think that it is right, but in reality it is not.

Funny thing in this class is I always give out the unorthodox answers that everybody keeps avoiding. Like when they asked
how you would rank the following:
love; marriage; courtship; sex;
everybody just kept answering: love, courtship; marriage; sex
so i answered: sex; love; marriage; courtship
everybody just gave a giggle, but in reality, i know majority of them are thinking of the same thing.

Another question that i answered was this
if there is someone in grave danger, like someone being raped or beaten up... would you help them out?
the wierd thing is, when we grouped together, i was like the only one who answered "Yes!"
they all kept giving answers of survival of the fittest and shit.... i just thought that thats bullshit,
if someone is in dying need for help, i would definitely help them out, because i know that there are many forms of help
you can just scream, throw a rock from a distance, call the cops, kick them, whatever... there are many forms of help...
i just don't understand them, it's either they are fucking scared or faggotts!
Good thing it's the weekend again, i can always use the break from thinking.

2005-05-18T13:39:00.000+08:00

Just got back home from a much needed rest from the real world. I stepped back for a while to experience the relaxing and steady environment in Boracay.
Boy it was such a great trip... met new interesting people and at the same time enjoyed my first summer vacation in 3 years. I drank till i can't see... literally... I had to wait for the sun to rise in order for me to see where i'm goin.
Damn, it was a great experience, though the drinks were expensive if you compare them to the prices here back home, but it was worth it.
Drinking a beer in one hand while dancing to the tripped out music of Ggggg- Unit blastin in the speakers of Cocamangas or Paraw while getting your feet dirty from all the sand and not caring of what anybody else thinks,
This vacation was perfect timing since i'm all stressed out from thinking on what to do on our thesis and getting ready for the upcoming school year. The view in Bora was amazingl, I thought it was over rated, but when I saw it.... it just made me relax.
From the view of the white sand covering your feet, to the view of the sunbathing chicks at the beach, to the view of the sunset that makes you keep quiet for a while and reflect on how amazing the world is.
Though now i'm back to the real world, and back to all the stress and polution.
I'm planning on coming back to Bora sometime in December.

2005-02-11T09:08:00.000+08:00

Here comes another year in my life,
a lot of obstacles have been passed
a lot of problems and decisions have been roughly made
the good times have been great; the bad times made me better
i'm coming to the stage of being mature,
learning to work in difficult situations
learning to work out of easy ones

this is my life and the road ahead still awaits
Now I have my new set of goals:

thesis - we have been denied by countless obstacles for too long, now it's time to retaliate by finishing it.

graduate - by the time i enrol in the next term; i would be seeing in school the kids from grade 6 when we left high school

take a break - i have been studyin and working non-stop for the past 3 years due to summer classes and OJT's

Work - then one of the most crucial decisions that I have to make; on where i'm gonna work.

hopefully by this time next year, I have a different set

2005-01-29T09:33:00.000+08:00

I don't know if this is true, but it's a good anecdote:

Gretchen Barretto likes her privacy while using elevators, so whenever she uses one, she orders her bodyguards not to let anyone inside.
So this is the story...
She was using the elevator in the RCBC tower in Makati, when suddenly an old lady rushed towards the elevator.
Gretchen then told her bodyguards, "Guards, please escort this old lady out of my elevator."
The guards told her "Yes, ma'm!"
But before the guards were about to escort the old lady, the old lady said,
"Guards, please escort this young social climber out of my building!"
They didn't know that she was the eldest daughter of Yuchenco

Highway

2005-01-28T11:47:00.000+08:00

It took a while but here's a thought
while I was going to work the other day, I noticed that it was still early so I slowed down to admire the morning sky and scenery while driving in the highway towards my exit point in Cabuyao. I had a steady pace of 80 kph and I just stayed in the fast lane (if you don't know, it's the left most side of the highway)and just switched lanes if there is a very slow car in front of me,
then I realized how many cars from behind me just kept on overtaking me,
from trucks, buses, cars, SUVs, a lot of cars just kept on overtaking each other, but I just kept my pace and watched them swerve from one lane to the next.
But, from all the vehicles that overtook me in the highway as they speed up from behind, to the right lane, onto the shoulder, then back to the middle lane.......
when they come back in the fast lane...
i'm still in front of them
after all the energy wasted from downshifting and turning the wheel to swerve from one lane to the next,I'm still there,I just had a constant pace and they still can't overtake me.
It happened about 4-6 times,
another funny scenario is when a car is about to overtake you so he had to switch to the right lane, or the slower lane.but when he reaches the slower lane, there's a slow jeep, so he has to go back to the left lane, or the fast lane and to the position where he was before

This is the first time I thought about it because everytime I go to work in the morning, i'm always in a hurry just like them,I never realized that keeping a steady pace, might really be a more effective strategy in driving. Try it sometime, and you would see my point

Note:
Though I wouldn't recommend this while there is traffic, because in traffic situations,
EVERY INCH COUNTS!

My Holiday

2004-12-26T23:48:00.000+08:00

I haven't been bloggin lately because i've been busy at work and at home.
At the office, they are all panicking because it's the end of the year and they have to finish everything on time before the Christmas vacation. So I don't have any time to use the internet and blog.:)
At home, we've been busy because my cousin from the New Jersey went home for our first Christmas together for nearly 18 years, so i've been hanging out with my cousin this whole time with his wife and three kids.
In the morning we just hang out in malls or play ball, while at night we drink outside our house and bond together, share countless jokes, mischiefs, adventures, and experiences done here and abroad......
overall this is a great Christmas for me, I haven't been goin out with my friends to Tahanan or Alabang because this is a very special occassion for my family.
Hope you all have a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!

2004-11-19T07:43:00.000+08:00

Last Sunday I checked out some of the new PS2 games at Festival Supermall.
Then I saw Grand Theft Auto San Andreas, and I have to buy it because of all the hype i've been hearing about it.
I asked the lady selling the game;
"Meron pa ba kayo GTA San Andreas?";
Then she said;
"Meron......."
...... then after a long awkward silence of waiting for her to do something/anything at all for the customer, i politely asked her
"Pwede po ba bumili?"
Then that's the only time she moves....
Fuck I don't know what's wrong with people today, but if you were the lady selling the game, after I asked you for the game, wouldn't you reflexively/quickly answer back at me
"Yes, are you going to buy?" or "Oo, kuha kayo?"
It's as if they don't want to sell.
I don't understand it.
It's like answering the phone and not saying "Hello!?".....................

Thesis Story

2004-11-18T11:54:00.000+08:00

Flashback

June 2003

Me, Jippo, Ping, and Karen are off to one of the most ground breaking and difficult thesis proposals ever made in the College of Engineering of La Salle.

We proposed to make a 2 Legged Robot.

The call was unheard of, there were other proposals in other schools here in the Philippines but they never actually tried to make one, we were supposed to be the pioneers.

Every faculty in our course doubted us, they all said that it will take years before we could actually have a walking 2 Legged Robot, they all said that it is impossible.Well we insisted that this is the path that we choose, that this is what we will do, and that they are all underestimating our capabilities.

We still wanted to do it.

So we defended our proposal and they agreed to give us a chance, they agreed for us to pursue our dream.

August-December 2003

we spent 100,000.00 pesos for the parts.

It included the sensors, joints, screws, aluminum bars, and the driver circuits for the robot to move.

All we have to do next is to assemble it and we could start testing the robot.

February 2004

It was afternoon around 2pm, I was on my way to school, my cellphone vibrated, it was our professor, and she asked if I could see her before I go to class, so I agreed.

As I went inside the classroom where she was at

she told me that the professors of the faculty have decided for us not to continue with our thesis........

I just felt my heart beating faster... and faster. ......

fuck!

August-November 2004

After months of discussion, brain storming, and smoke

we finally decided on what to do with our thesis

we decided to make a smart innovative electric fan that would have a temperature sensor, a clap function, and an emergency light.

Now we are preparing for our defense to our faculty... again.

I hope that the results would be different......

NBA Premiere Week

2004-11-08T10:30:00.000+08:00

Surprise teams:
Utah Jazz - They have cool uniforms, an exciting lineup, one of the best point guards in the olympics, and an amazing 3-0 start!

Toronto Raptors - Even with all the comotion of VC trying to leave the team, they still ended up with a 3 -0 start. Best start in franchise history

Orlando Magic - two words GRANT HILL!

Upsets of the week:
Houston Rockets - They are being hailed with the best duo in the NBA, the new Kobe-Shaq, but Yao and TMac just got off with a lazy 2-2 start.

This year is dubbed as one of the most exciting years in the NBA since no one knows who will beat who.There's no more "BEAT LA!" chants, no more Kobe passing to Shaq then back to Kobe, theres just Kobe and the rim.Dwyane Wade had a hell of a first week, so much for the so-called sophomore slump, Now Shaq is just laying back, chillin, waiting for the right time to put his gameface on beacuse right now, they don't need it.

Wade just had a career high 37 points yesterday, and we are just starting the NBA. Can't wait till Miami faces LA in December. HAHA

The Detroit Pistons ring ceremony was awesome, Ben Wallace came to the court with what seems to be like the World Heavyweight Championship Belts, like what Triple H is wearing on Raw

Then they showed off their bling to the home crowd.

Ron Artest is also putting up MVP numbers. Last time I saw a shooting guard that was hailed as the Defensive Player of the Year at the same time put up 30 per,was a bald guy by the name of Mike.(Though Mike did it in 1 year, MVP and DPY in '88)

I know AK47 is good, but 8 blocks in the game! woah! I wonder what he says in Russian after he blocks a shot.

Cool Site:
If your at work, or at school, and want to be updated with the NBA or any professional sports score.. check out
www.cbssportsline.com
Go to the game stats of the scoreboard and it automatically refreshes everytime a play happens, per fieldgoal, rebound, foul, turnover.
Better than the 2 minute auto refresh at NBA.com

2004-10-18T13:07:00.000+08:00
I was in my locker room with some of my fellow trainees,
then one of them stops and shows his newly purchased 7610
an astonishing "wow!" silenced the locker room because it's a very cool phone.

But then I stopped to wonder....
wonder on how in hell did he get a phone like that.
You see, my fellow trainees are not from DLSU, CSB, Ateneo, or UP... no they are just trainees from a technical college, either from Don Bosco (in Laguna) or Dualtech (which I don't know where).
When I first came to the company, they all kept muttering on why a La Sallian is training here, or that a La Sallian is automatically rich, and all sorts of stereotyping....
they all say that they don't have any cars and they commute to survive, eat a low budget meal, think about their family and kids, work hard it the production area..... and yet here they are, waving their high-end cellphones and playing music videos of heavy metal bands in the locker room and taking pictures......
Yeah, I know that there are other means of getting money or obtaining a camera phone,
but come on......
think of the reality and practicality of the situation. Instead of using the money for necessities that they definitely need, they would rather take pictures and download pornography in their cellphones.
I don't understand it.

2004-10-13T16:01:00.000+08:00